Removing my nix flakes vs guix post

撤下我的“Nix Flakes 与 Guix 等价物”文章

if you’re here looking for my “nix flakes and their guix equivalents” post, it’s gone. i deleted it. this isn’t a hate letter to andrew or anything like that. i’m writing this because i want to make sure nobody thinks i deleted the post after getting “caught” for “using an llm”. 如果你是来找我那篇“Nix Flakes 与 Guix 等价物”文章的，它已经不在了。我把它删了。这并不是写给 Andrew 的讨伐信之类的东西。我写下这些是因为我想确保没人会认为我是因为“使用大语言模型（LLM）”被“抓包”后才删帖的。

i wrote that post because i was curious about something and wanted to understand it better. i researched it a lot — clearly not enough, but still. i was proud of it. i shared it with my friends because i thought it was cool and they might think so too. just before eeping, i posted it in a few matrix chats. i woke up, and it was apparently on the front page of lobste.rs!! 我写那篇文章是因为我对某个东西感到好奇，并想更深入地了解它。我做了很多研究——显然还不够深入，但确实做了。我为它感到自豪。我把它分享给朋友们，因为我觉得它很酷，他们可能也会这么觉得。在睡觉前，我把它发到了几个 Matrix 聊天室里。醒来后，它竟然上了 lobste.rs 的首页！！

i had never ever imagined any of my blog posts would get more than three interested users let alone the attention it had garnered now. ludovic courtès — the literal founder of guix — made a toot about it that got twelve boosts!!! i was so excited meoww!! and then it turned out a last-minute javascript change i’d made had broken the site on mobile, and people couldn’t even read it. i fixed it as soon as it was brought to my attention. but by then people were already frustrated, and i can’t blame them. 我从未想过我的博客文章会有超过三个感兴趣的读者，更不用说现在获得的这些关注了。Guix 的创始人 Ludovic Courtès 甚至发了一条关于它的嘟文（toot），还获得了十二次转发！！！我当时兴奋得喵喵叫！！但后来发现，我最后一刻修改的 JavaScript 代码导致网站在移动端崩溃了，人们甚至无法阅读。我在收到反馈后立即修复了它。但那时人们已经感到沮丧了，我不能怪他们。

the next day, i come back from work, and a friend shares a link: andrew tropin wrote a review of my post. andrew tropin. someone whose work i really respect. i opened it so excited. and three paragraphs in, he says he suspects i wrote it with an llm. to be clear: i’m not upset about being critiqued. i actually welcome that, especially from someone as knowledgeable as andrew. 第二天，我下班回来，一个朋友发来一个链接：Andrew Tropin 写了一篇关于我文章的评论。Andrew Tropin，一个我非常尊敬其工作的人。我满怀期待地打开它。结果读到第三段时，他说他怀疑我是用大语言模型写的。声明一下：我并不介意被批评。事实上，我很欢迎批评，尤其是来自像 Andrew 这样博学的人。

what broke me was the accusation that i didn’t write my own words. and it’s the very first thing he says — before any of the technical points, before any of the corrections, the very first thing i read is that i’m suspected of being fake. if anyone is here expecting a response to the technical points of andrew’s post, then i’m sorry but this isn’t it. i was too devastated to really process them. i’m sure his criticisms are valid and correct, but i’m not really in the mood to engage right now. 真正击垮我的是那种“我没有亲自写下这些文字”的指控。而且这是他说的第一件事——在任何技术要点之前，在任何修正之前，我读到的第一件事就是我被怀疑是虚假的。如果有人是来这里期待我对 Andrew 文章中的技术要点进行回应的，那很抱歉，这里没有。我太难过了，无法真正去处理那些内容。我相信他的批评是有效且正确的，但我现在真的没心情去讨论这些。

what i can tell you is how that accusation made me feel. i put a lot of effort into the infrastructure of this site. i made ​ox-atom​ to power its feed. i made ​neocities.el​ to talk to neocities. i wrote the css and javascript by hand. there’s a cat in the background pattern. the section headers have little sparkles. the postamble says ~ meow ~. so after all that work, being told that arguably the most important part of my blog — the text, the part that’s supposed to be me — sounds like it came from a fancier markov chain, was destroying. 我能告诉你的是那种指控带给我的感受。我在这个网站的基础设施上投入了大量心血。我制作了 ox-atom 来驱动它的订阅源。我制作了 neocities.el 来与 Neocities 交互。我亲手编写了 CSS 和 JavaScript。背景图案里有一只猫。章节标题有小闪光。文章末尾写着 ~ 喵 ~。所以，在付出了所有这些努力之后，被告知我博客中最重要的一部分——那些本该代表我的文字——听起来像是来自一个更高级的马尔可夫链，这简直是毁灭性的打击。

i didn’t use an llm. but i cant prove a negative, and am anyways too tired to try. so im taking the post down mraow :c 我没有使用大语言模型。但我无法证明我没做过的事，而且我也太累了，不想再去尝试证明。所以我把文章撤下了，喵 :c