I cannot survive from burnout / 我无法从职业倦怠中幸存

I burned out two years ago, went through a divorce, and relocated to a new city. I live alone now and care for seven cats. Over the last two years, I’ve tried forcing discipline, making detailed plans, and restarting over and over. Despite this, I’m still carrying significant debt.

两年前我经历了职业倦怠，随后离婚并搬到了一个新城市。我现在独自生活，照顾着七只猫。在过去的两年里，我尝试过强迫自己自律、制定详细的计划，并一次又一次地重新开始。尽管如此，我依然背负着沉重的债务。

My main struggle is staying focused on paid work. I’m constantly building and working on my own side projects, but I struggle to put time into client work. Because of my experience, finding clients isn’t hard, but I tend to lose them after a few months due to low throughput.

我目前最大的困扰是无法专注于付费工作。我一直在构建和开发自己的副业项目，却很难在客户项目上投入时间。凭借我的经验，寻找客户并不难，但由于工作产出率太低，我往往会在几个月后失去他们。

I deliver high-quality code and solve their core problems, but I can only bring myself to work on client tasks for about 5–6 hours a week. I’m struggling to survive day-to-day and losing hope that this will change, though some days are good and I can get solid work done.

我能交付高质量的代码并解决他们的核心问题，但我每周只能强迫自己为客户工作约 5 到 6 个小时。我每天都在为生存而挣扎，并逐渐对现状的改变失去信心，尽管偶尔也有状态不错、能完成扎实工作的时候。

I’ve tried all the standard advice for burnout with little success. At this point, I wonder if burnout has become a habit, an excuse, or a form of self-sabotage. I’m posting here to see if anyone who has experienced something similar found a practical way out or a working routine that stuck.

我尝试过所有针对职业倦怠的标准建议，但收效甚微。到了这个地步，我开始怀疑职业倦怠是否已经变成了一种习惯、一个借口，或者是一种自我破坏的形式。我在这里发帖，是想看看是否有经历过类似情况的人找到了切实可行的出路，或者建立了一套能够坚持下去的工作流程。